FEAR No. 018 – World Outside My Window

Having a psychological roadblock causes one to do a number of things. Suicide is so five minutes ago, and I’ve mentioned how I won’t take medication, so I’ve moved onto self-help. The internet is a great place to to do just that. Before you say things like “You’re stupid for using the Internet in place of professional medical care”, I just want to say: you’re probably right. But if I’m in the mindset to want to help others like me and not at home plotting my next attempt, I say I’m doing OK.


In conjunction with wanting to be a writer, I frequent sites that are helpful to the body and spirit as well as the literary mind. One of my faves is Divine Caroline.


In a recent article, author Vicki Santillano lists ways to use your fears and turn them around to give back to others. One of my fears is to become more outgoing. In order to be charitable with my fear, I’d have to step outside my comfort zone and actually talk to people. Not hard for me to initiate, just hard to sustain (I am a flake on top of so many things). And PEOPLE! Oh, my word. You have to understand. I don’t befriend more than five people at a time. Not on purpose. It just kind of happens. But these fears are so me! I’d be a fool not to try and conquer some.

Here’s to trying. I’ll let you know how I fare.